This is the website of Yasmina von Amsberg
I’ll carry the sea
in a jar round my neck
rushing and whooshing
it seeps into me
I’ll keep the sea
in a jar round my throat
…caught in a net
never letting it go
I’ll sleep with the sea
wrapped tight round my soul
until the glass breaks
and I’ll never forget…
I’ll never forget…
I’ll never forget…
–Sat. Jan. 10th 2015
Walking with you
around the curves and bends
just you and I
and all the geometry
discussions of science
-the universe
and I was suddenly eleven again
…we were both there again
I want to stay forever
that’s what I miss the most
I hope I didn’t look too stupid
when i didn’t know the answers
I just love to listen to you sing…
I could wish to pull the lever
turn the world on my head
This means more to me
than you may ever know
Your words ringing in my ears
slowly listening
something new to learn
just you and I
walking and talking
being who we used to be.
–Fri. Jan 2, 2015
Tattered cobweb shawls
Spidery hands and a skeletal face
Up in the attic, lost in her chest
she rotted and withered away
Threadbare frayed heart
Another empty day
Hiding the hidden —
(locked away)
A washed-out body
for a decayed dress
For all the reasons that she can’t show
Kissed by death
and her alibis
For another empty life
An over-crowded dance floor
another wilted game
another chance to change…away.
–Sun Dec. 12 2014
Living in the past
she sits, she sighs
She wishes for all that can never be
She hopes for an imaginary life
Living in the future
She worries all the time
She makes herself false promises
Her thoughts never rhyme
Living in the present
she finally feels all right
breathing in the here and now
-setting her dreams alight.
The sun comes up from behind
lighting up her hair like a halo
Like the angel she is
In all her imperfections
and brutal reality
Still, she looks like heaven outside
so calm and filled with placidity
the eye of a hurricane comes again
and for a moment, she breathes…
I think I love her through her flaws
despite them, I will always care
More than I did yesterday
and more than halos will ever appear.
Sitting out under the bright night sky
I breathe deep
The moonlight reflects on the polished black glass
of the lake
Ripples draw me in
Sliding up, I break the surface
growing fins as I slip
Lightheaded; slightly dizzy with euphoria
Dreaming as the dampness drags me down
A monster pulls from the unseen depths
A blessing in disguise
Gasping for breaths that I no longer have
My sight blurs before me
I’m losing control
of myself
My ears no longer hear as I fall
My lungs no longer breathe
the stiff shivering overtakes me
As I drift into a sleep.
The intricate spiral of a spider’s lace
a gentle gossamer gown
Fluttering in a delicate breeze
Sighing in the wind
Woven web
beads of dew lay silent
Mesmerize, hypnotize
Drinking in the opulence
Last moment of the day
evening glints off the translucent threads
The sun sinks into the ground
And then
…in the end
by dawn’s first light
Gone, without a sound.
Here
away from the city lights
I can finally see the stars
Pinpricks of light in a darkening sky
I feel so small
and so far away from you now
It really does make me wonder
It really does make me forget…
Does everyone have
someone they miss
when looking up at the stars?
I stare up again
Lost in thoughts
Gazing into the night.
Snow White hiding in the woods
Dwarves are closing in
Blue around the mouth and eyes
Stop the heart and win
Passionate
Unrequited obsessions
Still beating at the curtain call
Affection
Amorous poison
still throbs through the veins of ruby lips
Apple dusted powder white
Snow atop the red
a travesty of the animated stars
Blinded by the innocence and lightly-tipped
Illicit kisses
Silent wishes
Of a supernal Snow White.
Consumed by the swelling of the tides
She watches the waves break
Watches the soft sea froth and foam
The crashing caress of the rocks below
Consumed by the breathing of the sky
The grey turning tumble of clouds and I
Slow eyes upturned to the turbulence
As everything fades away
Consumed by the crashing of the sea
she shivers and slides up close to me
I let her go, I let her watch
and fly away with the waves…